It is an inestimable privilege of maturity to find the roots of our ills only in ourselves, whereas the young man cannot help but blame the outside world, and with all the more ferocity the greater his own defects.

—Umberto Saba (trans. Howard Curtis), “The Hen,” in Jhumpa Lahiri, ed., The Penguin Book of Italian Short Stories, 91

Up 8.
Made some changes in our grocery order.
Worked maybe 90 min, 11-12:30. Working out some kinks.
Therapy.
Cooked some mushrooms for dinner later.
Watched most of a Zoom panel on “The Commune” with Bruno Boestels, Joshua Clover (who kept it short), Jodi Dean, Fred Moten, others.
Went out w/ an umbrella to E77, read 30 p. Fanon bio, 25 p. Sharp, 10 p. Kovac, wrote 1 p. In poetry notebook (I’ve been running 1 day ahead). Forgot my keys and phone. Came back at 6.
Watched a bizarre 1994 video of “White House Cabaret,” hosted by the Clintons, with Dixie Carter (awful), Bobby Short (brilliant), Blossom Dearie (good), Shirley Horn (a bit misplaced), Len Cariou (doing “Soliloquy” from Carousel, poor choice of material) w/ Bree over dinner. Talked for a while after (difficult).
Didn’t work as much as I’d hoped today - at least 3 things on my to-do list uncompleted.
Read the story quoted above. Watched another 30 min. A Man Vanished.
Read more Sharp in bed.